What I am most thankful for

What I am most thankful for is that Rama taught me to question everything. Investigate fully every action, every emotion, every piece of information. To learn what is real and what is illusion. To me that is the essence of being. This I was taught from a great master. Now I must put it into a different type of practice. It is easy to practice when there is someone there saying yes or no, correct or incorrect, fix this, adjust that. But now, life is not that simple. And I again must question everything. But now, it is somehow more real, in the same way how fighting in a tournament in more real that just sparing in the dojo. Now there is no one but me to know if I am living in illusion or in reality. No one to confirm my suspicions, no one to share my insights. This is the moment I was prepared for by my master. This is a very exciting and happy time. He gave me the tools to understand, and to question. I must take the step as I did once before, in the beginning, when I first started to question, but know I must go deeper. It is good that there is only myself to rely on. Perhaps this is how I can honor him most. In the privacy of my meditation, can I truly understand what is real and what is illusion. He has given me everything I need to complete the great work. The rest is up to me. What more could I ask for.

Christopher